The Whirlwind Romance
CAPTION: Our picture on Regina, Tanay..
Masyado akong naging komportable na hindi ko na napapansin, more than a friend na pala relasyon namin. Ni hindi nga man lang ako nag-isip na iba na pala ang tingin samin ng iba. Actually, lagi pa naming tinatawanan yung mga taong nagsasabi na may relasyon daw kami dahil alam namin sa isa’t-isa na wala talaga. Masyado lang talaga kaming close sa isa’t-isa kaya siguro ganun. At saka, madami kaming bagay na pinagkakasunduan especially sa isang relationship.
Oct. 21, 2012 Tanay
Hindi ko alam na dun pala magsisimula lahat. Kumakanta lang naman ako sa videoke nung madaling araw na. Last song that I was singing Catch me I’m Fallin by Toni Gonzaga. Wala na nga ako masyadong maalala nun kasi nakainom din ako. I can’t even believe him na nagtanong ako ng nagtanong sa kanya.
Nagising ako madaling araw na may katabi na. Alam kong sya yun since sa boses nya. Hindi naman din ako nagtaka bakit nakayakap sya sakin since normal samin ang ganung bagay.
Kiss.. .
That was the thing na nakapagpabago sa lahat. Hindi ko magawang dumilat at tanungin sya dahil ni sa hinagap wala kong naiisip na ganun. Lagi pa nga nya akong niloloko na liligawan nya na lang ako pero never akong nag-isip na may iba pa pala.
I told him that were going to talk about that later afternoon dahil ayoko ng confrontration ng mga oras na yun. Masama na rin pakiramdam ko pero yung nangyari pa rin ang iniisip ko. I don’t if I’m too numb not to notice his actions.
Masyado akong masaya that day pero worried din dahil hindi ko alam kung totoo nga ba yung nangyari. Basta sinunod ko lang yung instinct nan nagsasabing bakit hindi ko itry. Wala naman sigurong masamang mangyayari.
At dahil na rin sa kakakulit nya. Official na kami.
I’m indeed happy.
Yun bang masyado akong naeexcite to the point na sumasakit na yung tyan ko. Masyado akong kinikilig na di ko mawari.. . nakakatakot dahil nung inaantay pa lang nya yung sagot sakin, ramdam kong nanginginig ako. I can’t even look at him that time. At saka sobrang takot na ako pumasok sa mga relationship pero dahil andyan sya and I trust him sumubok ako.
Hindi naman ako nagsisisi dahil alam kong konting effort pa nya, mafafall din ako sa kanya.
Actually … mahal na mahal ko na nga sya ngayon..
My song for you..
I’m Gonna Love You - Jennifer Love Hewitt
Angel in disguise
Stories in his eyes
Love for every true heart that it sees.
Was it just a lucky day
That it turned to look my way
Or is it Heaven right before my very eyes.
He showed me all new things
The shimmer of moonbeans
I was blind, but now he’s helped me see.
I was lost but now I’m found
His happiness surrounds
And now I find that my dreams can come true.
Cause I’m gonna love you for the rest of my life
I’m holding you safe here in this heart of mine
I can’t live without you cause my soul would die
You know I’m telling the truth, I’ll spend the rest of my life loving you
It didn’t start this way
It happened just one day
You smiled at me and I saw you, differently.
Now I’m a tremble just to be
A part of you as we
Begin a life that’s sure to never end.
Cause I’m gonna love you for the rest of my life
I’m holding you safe here in this heart of mine
I can’t live without you cause my soul would die
You know I’m telling the truth, I’ll spend the rest of my life loving you
(No Subject)
I hate myself.. I dont have any time on him this day tapos yung ini-expect pa na magkikita kami tom hindi pa natuloy..
Damn..!
Naiiyak na ko habang magkausap kami kasi alam kong masama loob nya. I can’t talk to him na ganun yung nararamdaman ko at pinaparamdam nya. Nasasaktan ako.. . At mas nasasaktan sya..
So bullshit..
Hindi ko na pwedeng ireason out ang kung anu-ano..
I know na nararamdaman mo na naman na parang nareject ka or parang binalewala ka. I’m really sorry mahal.. I hope we could be ok this night.. .
via britneyspears
(via sad-lovequotes)
via sad-lovequotes
The movie date (At last!)
Last week he asked me if I wanted to watch a movie, and I immediately said yes. Of course, why the heck would I hesitate? I really wanna go out since that would be my rest day. I need to relax. ..
But of course, there will be always be some hindrance. The next day, he texted me that it will be postponed so I said ok. I was really frustrated that time. Lagi na lang kasing postpone ang bweset na lunch date namin and then this movie date namin ganun pa din.
Wednesday, I got a message from my friend that after going to mall we would drink. So I said, yes. Then after a while I got a text from him, from the guy I like. There you are, he was asking me kung tuloy pa daw so I said, “Sure.”. But of course, I confirmed to him first kung sure nga ba. Mahirap na. Ayoko nang umasa sa mga broken promises nya. Ilang beses na kasi.
The time of movie was 7:40 pm so i hurriedly dress since I’m going to SM North to buy pocketbooks. Before 7 pm I was running to the MRT station. I didn’t realize the time was already 7:20 pm wherein i haven’t yet reached Galeria. I was really tired walking/running to reached the mall and I don’t wanna disappoint him being late. But of course, I made it. Just so fucking tired.
We didn’t talked much since we’re watching and I’m buys eating. Oh! The title of the movie was “Perks of being Wallflower”. It was good but I bet there could be other nicer movie. I just didn’t comment much.
We still stayed outside the mall since he wanted to smoke. I wanna smoke too but he didn’t gave me one. I was already pouting my lips. But I felt some concern at medyo nahiya rin ako. Hay..
Kaso sobrang sumakit ang ulo ko at gusto ko ng sumuka dahil sa kagagahang ginawa ko. Labas masok ba naman sa aircon at pawisan pa..
Gusto ko ng umamin sa kanya kaso natatakot ako, while talking to him at the bus. Iba ang nafefeel ko.
Sana pwede nga akong magconfess sa kanya.
Pero pakiramdam ko walang mangyayari eh. The feeling is not mutual.
But.. .
I like him already..
Shit.. .
This song is for you though wala pa naman tayong relasyon. Hoping kung may mangyayaring maganda.. . Pero kung wala, ipagpapatuloy ko ang pakikibakang maging single na lang..
I Miss You - Boyz II Men
Thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you baby
I realize, it was just my mind
Playing tricks on me
And it seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time the phone rings
I pray to God it’s you
And I just can’t believe
That we’re through
I miss you
There’s no other way to say it
And I can’t deny it
I miss you
It’s so easy to see
I miss you and me
Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other’s love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don’t care
I miss you
There’s no other way to say it
And I, and I can’t deny it
I miss you
It’s so easy to see
I’ve got to gather my senses together
I’ve been through worst kinds of weather
If it’s over now
Then I’ll be strong
Can’t believe that you’re gone
I’ve got to carry over
I miss you
There’s no other way to say it
And I, and I can’t deny it
I miss you
It’s so easy to see
I miss you and me
Oh there’s no other way to say it
I can’t deny it
I miss you baby
It’s so easy to see
I miss you and me
Oh no other way to say it
I miss you baby
There’s no other
That you’re part of me now
That you’re part of me now
I miss you
Said I can’t deny it
I, I, I, I, I miss you baby
It’s so easy to see
I miss you and me
He called me baby.. .
Hi baby.. .
it’s not honey anymore.. . I already moved on. Yun nga lang, I already.. or maybe i’m starting to like you.
I just don’t like what you were doing. You made promises just to break it. I could still remember the sadness I felt that time.
That was Friday, Sept. 7 when I’m going to pee and you just coming back to your post. When I saw you, I smiled and you too. You told me, actually you didn’t even asked me. You wanna date me on Monday Sept. 10. Then I replied, “Ok. No problem.” then smiled. When I was already walking I turned my back and there you are, still gazing at me. Again, I shouted “No problem. It’s really ok.” then smiled.
When I was already on the Comfort Room I wanna scream but of course I stop myself. I’m kinda scared that someone might hear me. I was just grinning like crazy at the image on the mirror, me smiling like some insane girl.
So I waited for that day, even though I got terrified and my stomach kept clenching for three days because of excitement. Then some fucking hell, I was waiting for 7pm, I also chatted you but got I reply from you that you can’t make it because you got no budget.
Did you even have any idea what was my feeling that time?
I got hurt.
I didn’t mind that time my feelings since I was really starving. Thank God for my friend who accompanied me. After that, I checked my YM you just replied a sad face.
I can’t remember what happened after that time. But all I know was what I feel. I cried a little then bit my lips to stop it. I’m scared when realization hit me. I was really affected when you didn’t make it. I was so scared.. .
Tue, Sept. 11 Maybe after an hour my break, I came to you to have some copies of Prison Break, your the only one on your cubicle doing some other sidelines.. You looked at me and asked me what’s the matter. I just said nothing but I know you noticed the sadness on my face. Of course, I can’t hid that but I just did.
You were eating and I said, I’m hungry too. I got my food then sit beside you while you were eating too. You brought up again the topic, saying sorry because you were busy and made promises again to treat me on this coming Friday Sept. 14. I don’t know if I’m going to believe it so I just ignore it hastly.
You already mumbled something and it’s too late not to smile. You said, “Tuloy pa rin naman yung date natin kahit hindi tayo umalis. Ito na yung date natin.” Maybe I laughed, but also savor the moment. I didn’t even asked you why the hell you wanna date me? Even though I know the feeling is mutual but what the heck right?
You will still make a way to change the topic. I know you sometimes. I’m really waiting when the hell will you ask me. I like you too baby ok??
I just dont know if what your feeling for me is real.
I dont wanna play around.
And that’s why I’ll stop myself falling for you. Maybe tomorrow will be the last time I’ll come to you. Next week.. . I’ll take a grip on my mind. TO STOP GOING TO YOU.
You will just hurt me baby.. And I don’t want that to happen.
- The song is one of my favorite and you also so I chose this.
Wild Horses
Alicia Keys feat. Adam Levine
Childhood living is easy to do
The things you wanted I bought them for you
Graceless lady you know who I am
You know I can’t let you slide through my hands
Wild horses couldn’t drag me away
Wild, wild horses, couldn’t drag me away
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain
Now you decided to show me the same
No sweeping exits or offstage lines
Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind
Wild horses couldn’t drag me away
Wild, wild horses, couldn’t drag me away
I know I dreamed you a sin and a lie
I have my freedom but I don’t have much time
Faith has been broken, tears must be cried
Let’s do some living BEFORE we die
Wild horses couldn’t drag me away
Wild, wild horses, we’ll ride them some day
Wild horses couldn’t drag me away
Wild, wild horses, we’ll ride them some day
Tagged: You and me. But not anymore.
(via sad-lovequotes)
via sad-lovequotes
A BROKEN HEART
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